Slept until about 4pm today. Been think­ing a lot about things, mostly Sharon. Also, I'm really sad that the musi­cal is over. At the same time, I'm very relieved. I hon­estly didn't real­ize how fun of a time it was until after it was over. Now it's time to start on "The Shadow Box". Sharon has a main part in that show too, which coin­ci­den­tally brings me to …

I just don't know. Matt told me last night that she's very con­fus­ing and that's why he doesn't want to be with her any­more. He also said that he cares about me and doesn't want to see me get hurt. Many oth­ers close to her have also said to "be care­ful". Dur­ing our con­ver­sa­tion in the car on Fri­day, I told her how scared I was to be in another rela­tion­ship and I told her a lit­tle bit about how Jamie had hurt me.

Things have been cir­cu­lat­ing for a while now. A few peo­ple last night have asked me if Sharon and I are going out. And I real­ized that I didn't really have an answer for them. So I said that we weren't offi­cially together and that we're work­ing on some­thing slowly. But I knew that wasn't right, either. I really don't know. If we are "together", then I prob­a­bly need to act like it. At the party, Megan told me that maybe Sharon was upset that I was "flirt­ing with every­body". I usu­ally don't have the inten­tion to do that, first of all. And if I were "with" Sharon, there is no way I could pos­si­bly want any­one else. Sharon is so incred­i­bly beau­ti­ful and sweet. Tomor­row I'm going to try and talk to her to straighten things out …

I can't believe that I've slept this late and I'm still tired. At least I've had time to think today, which I des­per­ately needed, espe­cially after last night. I have a feel­ing, that for bet­ter or worse, things will be clearer tomorrow …