I don't know why I haven't writ­ten lately. I have been busy, but not too busy to write. But let me try to get up to speed:

Jamie's Birth­day Party: I had the most fun that I can recall in recent mem­ory. We all had a great time, espe­cially Jamie and I. We sat and talked, lis­tened to music, and later, watched the movie "Drive Me Crazy" (chick flick). Jamie was lay­ing in my lap dur­ing this whole time. It was great. I also had a nice con­ver­sa­tion with Carly about Jamie and how I felt about her. I was sup­posed to leave at 10. I asked Jamie to walk me out­side, which she did. We stood on the porch alone and just held each other. I told her that I had a great time. She started to laugh. I asked why. She said that she "always falls for guys named Chris." This took me by sur­prise. Because of this, the only thing I could gather to say was, "does that mean that you've fallen for me?" She said yes. I told her that this put a damper in my plans because I wasn't plan­ning on ask­ing her out until the fol­low­ing night at Boost­ers. She said it was my choice. So I asked her out then and there. She said yes. Then we kissed (know­ing that Carly and Jamie's friend Angela were watch­ing us); it didn't work very well because I was ner­vous about being watched. So I told Jamie that we should give it a sec­ond shot. She obliged and this time it was great!!! We held each other a lit­tle longer and I finally said good­bye. On the way home, I was so happy I could hardly drive. I thought that this was the best night of my life, and it was. Until …

Boost­ers: I picked Jamie up at 6. She looked absolutely stun­ning. She wore this semi-see thru blue dress that she made. It was fan­tas­tic. I handed her a rose, posed for some pic­tures from her mom, met her dad, and we were off.

Din­ner: We went to Fazoli's and met Michelle, Buffy and Kevin, and Dan (Brake) and Kris­tine. At this point, only Buffy and Kevin knew that Jamie and I were dat­ing. We got through din­ner, which was no easy task because Jamie and I were "out of the loop" from Buffy and Michelle's lit­tle clique. But it was okay. I was there only for Jamie.

The Dance: Jamie and I had a great time, danc­ing and talk­ing. Dan (Rich­ling) even came to the dance and hung out with us. Slow danc­ing with her was the best feel­ing in the world, espe­cially when we kissed at the end. The only "snafu" was when I had to go to the restroom: When I came back, Jamie was danc­ing with Dan Brake. And when I approached them, Dan told me to "go back to the mop closet" in his most seri­ous tone. Jamie just kept danc­ing with him. So I let them dance and went to talk to Dan R. Jamie came up to me later and told me she was sorry. Appar­ently, she didn't hear what Dan had said, and she apol­o­gized for ditch­ing me.

Side­bar: Jamie and I had dis­cussed the fact that Dan (Brake) liked her before. He had been seri­ously hit­ting on her dur­ing tech. She said that I was wrong, but even if he did, it didn't mat­ter because she had me. I found out after Boost­ers that Juice and Dan B. had the plan to hook Dan up at Boost­ers. As his date, Kris­tine was just a cover. He was going for Jamie. This was, of course, before he knew that Jamie and I had hooked up the night before. But it was all good. By the end of Boost­ers, he had hooked up with a girl named Natalie. Jamie and I spied on them — danc­ing out­side with no music. It was cute.

After The Dance: I took Jamie home at about 11:15. When we got to her house, we just sat in my car and talked — until 12:30! This was great. That's one thing about Jamie — I can talk to her about any­thing, and she can do the same with me.

So far, so good…

That Sun­day: I took Jamie to see the Rocky Moun­tain Youth Orches­tra at the Lin­coln Cen­ter that evening. When we got to her house, her par­ents weren't home. So she invited me in. We just sat on the couch with the lights dimmed, kissed and talked. We talked about how we thought that we were per­fect for each other. It was great … until her par­ents came home. Her dad was a lit­tle mad about me being there, but it was okay.

Since Then …

We've all been real busy prep­ping for "Greater Tuna." I thought that Jamie almost broke up with me on Thurs­day night. She said that things were mov­ing too fast, which they were — ear­lier that day, we told each other that we were falling in love with each other. I took this as "break­ing up." She felt so bad that, dur­ing the show, she left the light booth and didn't return. I felt very bad, too, because I really wanted this to work, and I didn't want to push her away. She called me on Fri­day and told me that she didn't want to break up with me, that what she said came out totally wrong. She said that the only thing she wanted was for us to not be affec­tion­ate in pub­lic until she feels com­fort­able. I said okay.

Open­ing Night of "Greater Tuna" was last night. The show was phe­nom­e­nal. After the show, Dan Brake had a cast party at his house. The party was AWESOME!!! We had a live DJ, glow­sticks and great music. The only thing was that Jamie com­pletely ignored me. I asked her if she was mad, and she said no. She said that she didn't see her friends very often, and that she didn't mean to ignore me. I said it was okay. Unfor­tu­nately, she had to leave the party at 11:30.

Today, Jamie called me. She said that she didn't sleep at all last night because she had been "such a bitch to me." I told her that it really was okay. She said that she felt really bad, and asked me why I put up with her. I told her that it was because I want to. Also, I think she's is worth it. She is scared that I might become pos­ses­sive of her, because of what many oth­ers have told her. I told her that there was no way I would do that. I just need to exer­cise self-control. But, things are cool.

I really really don't want to screw this up. She is the best girl­friend I have ever had. We're hon­est with each other, and we love spend­ing time with each other. Please, Lord, give me the strength, con­trol, and courage to make this work.

Another show of "Greater Tuna" tonight. Whoo-hoo!