I've never been this tired in my entire life. The events of last night have left me groggy and uneasy.

I don't know what's gonna go on with [name omit­ted]. She talked to me a lit­tle bit today at lunch, but other than that, we haven't spo­ken. When we did, we cer­tainly didn't talk about last night.

Some­thing tells me that noth­ing mean­ing­ful will come out of the events of last night, and that it will be the last time any­thing hap­pens between her and I. I love what we've been doing, but it's not enough for me. I can't have some­thing purely phys­i­cal, no mat­ter how appeal­ing it is. I need to find some­thing substantial.

Unfor­tu­nately, the rest of the day is a blank to me. I need rest.