The past two weeks have been very interesting. Things with Jamie seem to only get worse. I still haven't talked to her about things since the football game, and she's since seen my rather unforgiving articles on playfulHATE.com… so has Lizzy and her other friend Angela, who has since attacked me via e-mail about them. I'm not extremely worried about that, though.
My only concern is mustering the courage to face Jamie. I don't know how, but I've forgiven her. Even if what I've heard about things she supposedly said is true, I just don't care anymore. I've been way too bitter for way too long, and it's time for me to let it go. I'm going to try and be friends with her, whether that will work or not isn't really known at this point.
I will feel the aftershock for quite some time, though. Simply because I've lost so much of my trust for people in general, especially girls. And it's gonna take some time for me to get that back, but I'm sure I will. It's time to move on. Accept and move on.
I've all but lost my friendship with Dan. Supposedly my best friend. As soon as school started, he re-arranged his priorities. Unfortunately, this arrangement did not include me. He feels that Julie deserves all of his time. I posed this concern to him. His response was that he would try to balance his time, to this point he has not. So that's gone. It's a shame, too. It's really sad to all of a sudden be non-important in a person's life. But it'll be okay.
Last Thursday night, I was inducted into the International Thespian Society. It was really a lot of fun! I and my friend Natalie performed "The Time Warp" from The Rocky Horror Picture Show. Wow. And me, not being a performer, was scared out of my mind. But it got a good laugh, and I felt as if I had conquered a demon. Perhaps I'll start to expand now in Theatre. Who knows.
I asked my friend Kristine Gallatin to Homecoming. I've liked her since last year, and I finally decided to do something about it. She said no. Her reason? Because she has to work. It's okay, though. Cortni and I decided to have an anti-Homecoming party at her house. Interesting …