I'm not grad­u­at­ing. I went to Mr. Cree­gan and told him that I was now ready to do Inde­pen­dent Study Biol­ogy with him.

Not gonna happen.

He said that I came to him way too late and he was too busy to help me at this stage in the game, so to speak. He offered to help me dur­ing the sum­mer, but that's a lit­tle too lit­tle a lit­tle too late.

I had a meet­ing with Mr. Boda and Mr. Knoll to talk about this. They were going into the alter­na­tives, as far as sum­mer school and all that …

I told them that I wish some­one would have done some­thing dif­fer­ent. But I later came to the real­iza­tion that the only one I had to blame was myself. Boda said that he respected that. And then he said that is was par­tially their ("their" mean­ing him and Knoll) fault for mak­ing it seem like I actu­ally had a chance to do all of this work in such a short amount of time.

I guess I knew this was going to hap­pen. I just spent a lot of time telling myself that it wasn't. Denial is a pow­er­ful master.

That's life, I guess.