… is a cruel and unusual mas­ter. I sit and won­der some­times if it is all in my head, or whether the feel­ing it imprints actu­ally has mean­ing. In either case, it has con­trolled me more than any­thing else as of late.

I've been so scared of screw­ing some­thing up… with Megan, with work, with everything.

And it really took what seemed like a cat­a­stro­phe to snap me out of it. The thing that made me more scared than any­thing else had was what ended up sav­ing me.

Thank you, baby. You made me real­ize that I have noth­ing to be afraid of.