My friend Amy tonite, on my ongoing crisis…
[22:08] Amy: That is difficult. I think you know this, but the collegiate experience does a lot toward forming the rest of a person's life.
[22:08] Me: Yes.
[22:08] Amy: There's no easy way around that, and it's hard to take a deep breath and say, "Do I have a place in your life anymore?"
[22:09] Amy: I'll tell you this, though … a few coon's ages ago I had to ask that question, and the answer was "no."
[22:10] Amy: It hurt. Stung like hell. No way around that part. But I appear to have survived.
[22:12] Me: Difference between you and I: I probably will never have the guts to ask that question. I've just spend the time wandering, and wondering. Only recently (within the past few months) have I been getting on with *my plan*.… and it feels good; but, at the same time, I feel a huge void in my chest where my heart used to be.
[22:12] Me: … with the notion that only she can return it to its former shape.
[22:12] Me: Silly me. :-\
[22:13] Amy: Nah. Pretty normal, actually.
[22:15] Me: Speaking of her, although it was some time ago, she asked me to tell you that she really enjoys domesticat.
[22:16] Amy: That's awfully nice. A little startling. I rarely get feedback, even though it seems like I'm turning into an old grey lady of the journaling world.
[22:17] Me: Hehe.… On the *old* chrislanphear.com, which Megan read religiously, I would occasionally quote you and link back to domesticat. She got hooked on it, haha.
[22:17] Amy: Oh, that's interesting. I assumed the two of you were not in much touch.
[22:17] Amy: Just from what you said. Guess I extrapolated too far.
[22:18] Me: No, not really… When she first moved, she called and wrote me all the time… As weeks went by, less and less contact.
[22:18] Me: So, you were half right!
[22:18] Amy: College tends to do that. I was the same way with friends at home. It wasn't that I didn't mean to keep in touch…just that it stopped happening.
[22:18] Amy: I wish I knew what ot tell you.
[22:19] Me: It's okay, I didn't think you would.
[22:08] Me: Yes.
[22:08] Amy: There's no easy way around that, and it's hard to take a deep breath and say, "Do I have a place in your life anymore?"
[22:09] Amy: I'll tell you this, though … a few coon's ages ago I had to ask that question, and the answer was "no."
[22:10] Amy: It hurt. Stung like hell. No way around that part. But I appear to have survived.
[22:12] Me: Difference between you and I: I probably will never have the guts to ask that question. I've just spend the time wandering, and wondering. Only recently (within the past few months) have I been getting on with *my plan*.… and it feels good; but, at the same time, I feel a huge void in my chest where my heart used to be.
[22:12] Me: … with the notion that only she can return it to its former shape.
[22:12] Me: Silly me. :-\
[22:13] Amy: Nah. Pretty normal, actually.
[22:15] Me: Speaking of her, although it was some time ago, she asked me to tell you that she really enjoys domesticat.
[22:16] Amy: That's awfully nice. A little startling. I rarely get feedback, even though it seems like I'm turning into an old grey lady of the journaling world.
[22:17] Me: Hehe.… On the *old* chrislanphear.com, which Megan read religiously, I would occasionally quote you and link back to domesticat. She got hooked on it, haha.
[22:17] Amy: Oh, that's interesting. I assumed the two of you were not in much touch.
[22:17] Amy: Just from what you said. Guess I extrapolated too far.
[22:18] Me: No, not really… When she first moved, she called and wrote me all the time… As weeks went by, less and less contact.
[22:18] Me: So, you were half right!
[22:18] Amy: College tends to do that. I was the same way with friends at home. It wasn't that I didn't mean to keep in touch…just that it stopped happening.
[22:18] Amy: I wish I knew what ot tell you.
[22:19] Me: It's okay, I didn't think you would.
London Bear will be getting some extra special hugs tonite, that's for sure. :-\