[Note 09/03: This was for­merly a pri­vate entry. It feels okay to make it pub­lic now.]

I Remem­ber…

The night we spent together where I stole our first kiss… how shy you were…

and how we laughed at Ricky Mar­tin and Christina Aguil­era at four in the morning…

We slept together that night, with one afghan and each other to keep us warm…

We made choco­late chip cook­ies the next day and laid together on the kitchen floor…

When, even though it was freez­ing, we sat out­side for hours after work and talked… and I told you more than any­one else knows… and let you get closer than any­one else…

When we sat in the court­yard, and even though you felt hor­ri­ble, you said "I Love You"…

A trip to Safe­way, which led to the most inter­est­ing pic­nic ever…

A won­der­fully sweet (and sexy) set of birth­day presents…

The best phone con­ver­sa­tion ever…

So many won­der­ful things about you… much too many to list here…

And…

The day you looked at me with cold, dead eyes and said, "I don't love you anymore…"

And I remem­ber my heart breaking…