I'm start­ing to get fed up with a lot of things in this com­pany. Much of it being my own prob­lem, but dis­tress­ing nonetheless.

I spoke tonite at length with a mem­ber of the cast who, in my own per­cep­tion, is strangely like me. Which I guess is why I actu­ally felt com­fort­able talk­ing with him. Through­out the course of the con­ver­sa­tion, we talked a lot about per­cep­tions in the con­text of the­atre and expec­ta­tions, both self-infused as well as mine of other peo­ple. And even though I've heard it before in my head, he told me a lot of things about how to man­age these feel­ings and expec­ta­tions, to basically…put myself in check.

Regard­less of these…awakenings…I'm start­ing to feel that I've learned what I can from this com­pany, and have gained impor­tant expe­ri­ence from this group of peo­ple. I've come as far as I can with this, and feel as if it's time to move beyond. This will prob­a­bly be my last show with Open­Stage Theatre.