Valentine’s Surprise

The Singers audi­tions were tonight. Great tim­ing, huh? Any­way, I had to stay for them, being a senior and all. They started at 6 and went until 10. Lots of fun …

But before that, I had decided to do some­thing nice for Megan, it being Valentine's. So I went to the store to buy her a rose. I drove to her house to give it to her. But I made her come out­side in the snow to get it. And when I gave it to her, I ended up ask­ing her out. She said yes. I hadn't planned on doing this! I had thought about it, but decided against it. We hugged for a lit­tle bit, and then I left to go to the auditions …

On the way back to Rocky, I thought to myself: "How the hell did that hap­pen?????" I really didn't plan to ask her out today. It wasn't that I was upset for doing it, just surprised …

It's a really great thing when you dis­cover that you still have the abil­ity to sur­prise your­self.
- Lester, Amer­i­can Beauty (1999)

All Wrapped Up in Stockings

7am — 10pm non-stop.

Non Stop.

Tonight was the Hol­i­day Stock­ing con­cert. My final Stock­ing (at least as a stu­dent). I also had the honor of serv­ing as Tech­ni­cal Direc­tor. It was a lot of fun, but I'm exhausted …

As was stated pre­vi­ously, I came to the Lin­coln Cen­ter at about 7am. Mr. John­son and I ran over the script, and then he intro­duced me to the LC staff. These were an awe­some group of peo­ple! I had a lot of fun work­ing with them …

Any­way, in the morn­ing, we ran through the pro­gram with the choirs. I had no idea what I was doing, and I think it showed through, unfor­tu­nately. Luck­ily, I had lunch to recover …

Almost every­one left for lunch or to go back to Rocky. The only peo­ple left at the Lin­coln Cen­ter were Nick Val­cho and myself. We had a rather friendly dis­cus­sion, talk­ing about home­work and other things. And then Sharon came back from lunch.

We talked for a lit­tle bit. I end­lessly teased her about her new glasses. She told me that she had been diag­nosed with a "stress-induced ulcer­ated cornea," and that she couldn't wear con­tacts because her eye was sen­si­tive. I found this laugh­able. It was fun to flirt with her again … fuckin' Sharon …

Round Two: We ran through the pro­gram again, this time with the bands and orches­tra. I felt a lit­tle bit more com­fort­able this time, all the time see­ing her. Oh well. It was time for the 4:30 show …

I was both excited and scared — mostly scared. But it went fairly well. We only had one glitch in the show, which I con­sider a real fuckin' achieve­ment, con­sid­er­ing the amount of shit I had to deal with …

Din­ner was a nice change of pace. Until then, I hadn't been off of my feet at all, and I was already really exhausted. But the show must go on …

The Big Finale: the 7:30 show. This was where me, and all of my fel­low seniors would make our mark. Once again, we only expe­ri­enced one snag, and I was ecstatic!

By the final song, "Oh Holy Night," many of the seniors were already cry­ing — myself included. It was a very emo­tional time, and I loved every minute of it. At the end of the con­cert, Mr. Cropp came to the podium and thanked the LC staff and every­body else. By this time, the entire audi­ence was stand­ing and applaud­ing. After his thanks, Mr. Cropp did some­thing I never thought he would do — he thanked me! It really was too much for me. I was cry­ing. Sev­eral oth­ers around me were cry­ing too. It was such a spe­cial time. I don't think that I've ever been so honored …

After the Stock­ing, Buffy, Kris­tine, and I went to Perkins. Kris­tine had to leave sud­denly, so Buff and I stayed and talked for a lit­tle while. It was a nice way to end the night …

MADrigal Dinners

What a long day. I'm so tired. Madri­gal Din­ner rehearsal was last night, and it took until about 10pm. By the time I got home, I really didn't feel like doing much, even though I had a paper due today in Parker's class. Because of this, I ended up ditch­ing 4TH hour. Mrs. Parker wasn't too happy when she saw me at rehearsal.

I had to leave rehearsal at 5:15 for the din­ners. So did Cathy. She waited for me, and we went to the din­ners together. This is an inter­est­ing dynamic: Since we broke up in 9TH grade, she hasn't talked to me, well, she hadn't until the begin­ning of this year. Since we started talk­ing again, I've noticed that she's changed some­what. She's more angry now, as if she's always bit­ter (about what, I don't know). Joel was inter­ested in her ear­lier this year. That's strange enough in itself. What's even stranger, though, is that I'm still in love with her. It shouldn't be as strange to me as it is, con­sid­er­ing that she was my first love, but it is nonethe­less. Joel told me before the din­ners that if she asked him out, he would say yes. I'm inclined to agree with him. Just as I said all those years ago, I will always love her.

We were all in our cos­tumes, ready to wel­come the guests. And who do I see? The Curiels. It's been almost exactly a year since Erik and I have spo­ken to each other. Basi­cally because of his mom. And there they were. I don't think that they saw me when they entered the ball­room, but I was really appre­hen­sive. Dur­ing the actual din­ner, I went over to my mom and told her that they were there. She said that she would say hello to them, but that I shouldn't expect any­thing else than that.

The event was so much fun! Being there in cos­tume, expe­ri­enc­ing a part of actual Eliz­a­bethan cul­ture was fan­tas­tic. I think every­one had a really good time. Per­son­ally, my favorite part is a skit where two stu­dents come out dressed as a bear and a dragon, and mock fight. It was really cool.

After the din­ners, my mom came up to me and told me that it was really fun and that she had a good time. She said she would see me back at home. Then I turn and.… there's Erik. We talk a lit­tle bit, say­ing that it had been a long time. We talked about his mom, and how she felt about me being what she thought I was. Any­way, he asked if I wanted to do some­thing on Sun­day (he had SATs on Sat­ur­day). I told him sure and that I would call him on Sunday.

After our con­ver­sa­tion, I drove home. It has been a good night. Wow — who would have thought that I would've ever talked about Erik and Cathy in the same entry ever again. Weird.

Not-So-Blue Monday

Start of 2nd Term. Oh my god! One quar­ter of my senior year gone. Seems as if it can't go fast enough. I'm try­ing to rel­ish it, though. Like Singers. I thank my lucky stars every­day that I'm in the best choir in Col­orado. It's been my dream for so long. I still can't believe that I have it. Depite all of the hor­ri­ble things that are hap­pen­ing in my life right now, I still try to rel­ish every sin­gle day. Try, at least …

I may have jumped the gun in the last entry about Sharon. This morn­ing, she came up to me and gave me a big hug. She said that she called me on Sat­ur­day night! Renewed enthu­si­asm. Going to keep a pos­i­tive outlook …

New classes:

Adven­ture PE — This seems like it will be pretty cool. Lots of going around town type stuff. Luck­ily, I have the class with Chris Nor­ris. At least there's some­body I know.

Great Books — One word: Rich­mond. I don't think that I've every laughed so much on the first day of a class in my life. Sure, it's a lot of read­ing. But it will be cool.

Col­lege Prep/Comp — Mrs. Parker. Lots of writ­ing. Lots of writ­ing. Just what I needed work on. I'm sure this will help me in life at some point. Besides, I didn't wanna take some easy Eng­lish class that I would get bored with, anyway.

Things are start­ing to look up. I can feel it.