[Clumsy Custard Horror Show] 1000 Percent Better!

The show couldn't have gone bet­ter tonight … Actors were in top form … Tech didn't suck … All in all, a good night.

Tomor­row will be my last show as a stu­dent at Rocky (hope­fully, if I grad­u­ate). To be hon­est, I'm really sad. I've decided not to be involved in One Acts so I can con­cen­trate on at least mak­ing an attempt to grad­u­ate. The­ater has been the great­est gift given to me in high school, and I'm very very sorry to see it go. But other things demand my atten­tion … now only if I can actu­ally do it …

[Clumsy Custard Horror Show] Embarassment

Open­ing night of The Clumsy Cus­tard Hor­ror Show… what a com­plete dis­as­ter. The act­ing was pretty good, but the tech was hor­ri­ble. Basi­cally every­thing that could have gone wrong … well … did.

After the show, Parker ripped the crew … and espe­cially me, a new one. We told her that we would fix things … but she said that we embarassed our­selves … lots of fun.

Not my day

Right after 2nd hour, Zhanna asked if I could take her some­where dur­ing 3rd hour. I told her that I would be happy to … even though this would be yet another day that I would ditch Brit. Lit. But I didn't care.

A cou­ple of days ear­lier, I had been talk­ing with Buffy, and I told her that I really wanted to go to Boost­ers with Zhanna. She told me that she would find out what Zhanna would say if I asked her. Dur­ing lunch, she told me that Zhanna said she would say no. I tried not to show it, but I was pissed.

3rd hour came. Zhanna found me and told me she was ready to go. I wasn't really talk­ing to her that much. From that, I guess she inter­preted that I was mad at her, which I was! It looked to me like she had only seemed inter­ested in me when she needed a ride or some­thing else from me. I, for one, really didn't appre­ci­ate being used.

She tried to walk away, and we argued for a few min­utes. I did my best to lie my ass off by say­ing that I wasn't mad at her. It's not that I wanted to lie to her, but I didn't want to make a scene either. She accepted, and I took her to Jessie's house. In the car, she didn't say a word, and I asked her why. She went off on this rant about how I didn't think that Russ­ian peo­ple had feel­ings, and how I was using her! I couldn't believe it … Even­tu­ally we got to Jessie's, and she left with­out say­ing a word.

Goril­las in Our Midst

The play, though incred­i­bly chaotic, pretty much went off with­out a hitch. I think that every­one was sur­prised that we were able to pull it off. It was a nice escape from the ear­lier events of the day.

After the play, Chres and I decided to go to Jason Michaud's place to chill for a while. When we got there, most every­body was there: Tom, Mikey, and Kevin. Juice and Dan weren't, though. And it appeared that Jason wasn't either. I asked Tom where he was. He said, "he's in his room with the Russ­ian girl." I looked at Chres, and we left. On the way back to Chres's house, I ranted about how pissed I was, and we had a great argu­ment about whether feel­ings are good or bad. Because of how pissed I was, I ended up crash­ing at Chres's … Per­haps things will be bet­ter tomorrow.

S T R E S S E D !

The major­ity of the day is a blur to me. But today, the tech lead appli­ca­tions were due for the Clumsy Cus­tard show. On mine, I wrote a note to Parker basi­cally say­ing that I wanted a higher-up posi­tion because I had the expe­ri­ence and knowl­edge to do so. She has always crit­i­cized my nature to freak out over lit­tle things and take them out on peo­ple. So I added that I would promise to be nice to people.

When I went to go turn the app in, she was in her office. I asked her if she had read my note. She said, "yes, but actions speak louder than words." These words really hurt. Espe­cially com­ing from a per­son who I've come to respect greatly. If she was ques­tion­ing my ded­i­ca­tion, then it's a really low blow — I've spent hun­dreds of hours work­ing for her in the the­ater. All for noth­ing. And she dares ques­tion my loy­alty? I always knew she hated me … this just proves it further.

Later, I had a rather lengthy dis­cus­sion with Megan. Lots of things came pour­ing out of me like a cheer­leader on a bat­tle­ship. (What the hell am I talk­ing about?) Any­way, we stayed in the Rocky park­ing lot, in the freez­ing cold, until about 10ish. I got her in trou­ble with her par­ents because she stayed there with me. Oh shit. Too much ten­sion. Exhausted. Phys­i­cally. Emo­tion­ally. Mentally.

[The Shadow Box] ER — Live!

Clos­ing Night: Five Min­utes to Cur­tain. We're all excited for the show, based on the reac­tion of last night. The green room is filled with commotion.

At the last minute, Carly, Chres and I go to per­form a pre-show rit­ual. Being as I am, I treat stu­pid things as if they're the most impor­tant thing in the world, so in my haste, I ran through the room — in the dark. I attempted to show off by jump­ing over a chair. Unfor­tu­nately, since it was dark, I couldn't see the frame of the door I was jump­ing through … or toward.

This won­der­ful maneu­ver caused me to hit my head on said frame, whip­ping my neck, and falling down on my back. There was a fair amount of blood all over the floor. What's funny is that it didn't feel that bad! Every­one was crowded around me, try­ing to see if I was okay. But see­ing as we had about 30 sec­onds before the show was sup­posed to start, I told every­one I was fine and rushed them out.

Mrs. Parker sent me to the hos­pi­tal. Chres drove me. All in all, it wasn't that bad. I received five stitches as a reward for my exploits and then they sent me on my way.

When we arrived at the cast party, it felt like the room stopped. After answer­ing sev­eral ques­tions and jok­ing about this fan­tas­tic mishap, things returned to nor­mal. After the cast party, a few of us went to Perkins. What fun. Ha!

[The Shadow Box] Opening Night with Zhanna

Tues­day after school, Zhanna had decided that she wanted to go to the play tonight. So I went and got the tick­ets. For the sake of con­ve­nience, I agreed to meet Zhanna, as well as Cali and Nathan at the show at 6:30.

I got to the box office at about 6:35. We all went and sat down. Once there, I real­ized that Cali's dad had come with them. This was not some­thing I had antic­i­pated. Later, Cali told me that she had noti­fied me that her dad was com­ing. But either I didn't hear her or didn't care. So, need­less to say, I wasn't able to get as cozy with Zhanna as I would've liked to.

But it wasn't a loss. The show was pretty good. I think that Zhanna had a good time. After the show, much of the cast and crew went to Perkins (go fig­ure). I think that I hung out until about 10:30, and then I went home.